Without Words: My Prayer

Father, Almighty, KING, Passionate Lover, Giver of Breath, Breaker of Bones, Healer of Hearts, Lover of Yourself;
I have never been in the place I am in now, or was at the beginning of the week. Unsure. Knowing that your name is being praised. Selfish as all get out. Wanting what I want, and hoping that that's in your will. Hearing your voice in the beauty of it. Feeling your touch, and your whisper. "Katelyn, continue to LOVE ME!"
Some things have been removed this week. This is beautiful because it's good, even though it is hard. Lord, even though I feel that you are glorified more when these things are reconciled to me... I feel that you are getting the most glory right now in the hearts that are involved. Lord, my heart cries out to you! REMOVE ME FROM THIS. I am learning so much Lord. Remove the stubborn callouses on my heart. I want to be wholly surrendered to who YOU ARE! To Your authority! GOD YOU MUST BE EVERYTHING TO ME! YOU ARE, EVERYTHING. Lord, thank you for the clarity provided within the last couple of hours. Beginning with Your Word... currently involved in pen and paper. Philippians is so beautiful Lord. Give me a patience that withstands all, and an understanding in everything that is going on Lord. THANK YOU for the circumstances placed in my life! THE BEAUTIFUL, HOLY, SACRED, WORTHY PEOPLE YOU HAVE PLACED IN MY LIFE. So few, but so many! Their hearts are sooo beautiful!!! The accountability which you place all around me! The love that flows freely because of YOU. God if you were not preminent in these people's lives they would be NOTHING! GOD! KILL ME THAT YOU MAY LIVE! LORD I AM NOTHING WITHOUT YOU! A WORM. A VILE WORM LORD!A MEANINGLESS WORM! I CRY OUT THAT YOU WOULD BREAK ME!!! My heart and flesh cry out to YOU! God YOU! Your spirit is WATER TO MY SOUL! You are EVERYTHING! THE BREAD! The substinance. My satisfaction. I've tasted and I've seen! YES I HAVE LORD! May everyone know of Him who saves! My words are so unworthy I dare not speak! GOD! I am a wildwoman! My flesh is nasty and vile and DISGUSTING TO YOUR NAME!!! I am a meaningless, disgusting, vile, irreverant, sick, good-for-nothing, SEVENTEEN YEAR-OLD ... WITHOUT YOU!!! I am only who I am in the good with YOU. You are so necessary! God one day I will see You and OH THAT DAY. :) I cry for the joy of it Lord. I hear your laughter Lord! May I please You?! Show me when I am not! For my actions and words can merely please You? Can my small, tiny, incompetent, meaningless words... attempt to please you? Can my actions? Lord! In my schoolwork, in the way I act around others! May they please you FOR YOU AND FOR NO OTHER! FOR YOU ALONE! YOU ALONE BE THE GLORY! God if my words and actions do anything but please you WRECK SHOP IN MY LIFE!!! BROKEN BONES ARE NECESSARY LORD! Reconcile me. Revive me. FOR YOU. May my heart be right in every circumstance. Let my schoolwork be pleasing to You! I am so SORRY FOR WHO I AM LORD! YOU. Lord You.